Audio Readings July 5, 2011 14th Week in Ordinary Time

Genesis 32:23-33;Psalm 17:1-3,6-8,15;Matthew 9:32-38

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“I will not let you go until you bless me.” (Genesis 32:27)

Jacob was on his way home after a long absence. During his stay with his uncle, he had married two women, fathered eleven children, and acquired a hefty amount of livestock. However, as he headed for home, he couldn’t help remembering that he was fleeing his elder brother Esau, whom he had cheated out of his father’s blessing. So when he hears that Esau is on his way to meet him, Jacob is nervous.

Jacob strategizes, doing everything he can to protect his household and pacify his brother. He divides his retinue in half and ferries his family to a safe place. He sends several groups of flocks as gifts for his brother. He begs God’s protection. But despite all his plans, he still feels afraid and unprepared for this reunion.

Everything changes, however, in the stillness of the night before the brothers meet. Jacob encounters a stranger who engages him in a wrestling match. As the contest wears on, Jacob realizes this is no ordinary man but an angel, and demands a blessing from him. For all his troubles, he receives a permanent wound and a new name.

But Jacob was blessed as well. His reunion with Esau was far more successful than he had hoped for. All was forgiven; Esau hadn’t come to seek revenge after all!

Wounded by his wrestling match, Jacob bore a constant reminder of his encounter with God. He learned that God’s blessing is not something to be bartered or stolen, like a birthright. Rather, it comes to those who are willing to wrestle with God, pitting their ways against his and letting him stretch and challenge them. Jacob knew he needed God’s blessing before he met Esau, and he was willing to fight for it, not just trick his way into it. He had become needy enough, and his need humbled him and made him determined.

Are you troubled over a difficult situation? It’s fine to come up with plans, but don’t forget to seek God’s heart about the matter as well. Wrestle with him over the problem if you have to. Give voice to whatever grievance you may have. Tell him what’s in your heart. Let God stretch and reshape you. In the end, you’ll find a greater blessing than you ever imagined.

“Lord, test me and search me. I want to hold onto your blessings no matter what.” ~WAU